In August, Phil Criswell was given six to 12 months to live.
He was also given a gift: not only the time to make his peace but the chance
to learn just how rich a man he is in friends.
On Monday, Criswell, an eight-year veteran of the Chesterton Street
Department, sat down with the Chesterton Tribune to talk about his
journey. Above all, to say good bye and thank you to the community whose
love and generosity have made his last days a blessing.
The bad news first came in February 2008, when Criswell was diagnosed with
third-stage esophageal cancer. He underwent chemo and radiation and later a
surgery to remove his esophagus as far down as his stomach. The surgery was
successful and his prognosis was good. Throughout it all, Criswell’s spirits
never flagged, backstopped as he was by his fellow employees.
And not just in the small ways either—like their using comp time to take him
to treatment—but in a big way too. In June 2008 Criswell’s
colleagues—spearheaded by Officer Jamie Nale and Cpl. Chris Swickard of the
CPD—threw an enormous party and fundraiser at the Moose to help him make
ends meet.
Eventually Criswell returned to work and his life returned to normal. Then,
in August 2009, he learned the cancer had returned and metastasized to his
lungs. “It’s fourth stage,” he said. “There’s nothing they could do.” By
October it had spread to his lymphatic system and ultimately to his bones
and other major organs.
Criswell did have a choice to make. “My doctors offered me chemo,” he said.
“Not radiation—there are too many tumors and they can’t cherrypick them—but
chemo. They said it might give me one or two extra months.”
But Criswell rejected the offer. “I wanted a little bit better quality of
life with my children,” he said. “I didn’t want to be sick in bed. It was a
real hard decision not to do chemo. It almost killed me a couple of times. I
didn’t want my kids to see me like that. And at 130 pounds right now, I
didn’t want to look like a skeleton the last few months of my life.”
At the moment Criswell’s only medication is an appetite builder—“I haven’t
had an appetite since my surgery,” he said—yet while Criswell’s managed to
avoid painkillers to this point, he won’t be able to do so much longer.
Criswell’s last day at work: Tuesday.
“I want to thank all the businesses and the town employees,” Criswell said.
“They have all backed me and supported me. And a lot of residents too. Like
the ladies in the town hall. Every time I walk in there, they smile from ear
to ear. And the guys in the Street Department have backed me like you
wouldn’t believe. They’ve carried me. I’m blessed to work for the Town of
Chesterton. It amazes me how they can be so unselfish.”
As for his boss, Street Commissioner John Schnadenberg, “I can’t say enough
about him. He’s the ultimate boss. He’s family-oriented. He’s such a
heart-felt human being.”
Criswell, 44, is a young man with a young family: a son in his early 20s and
two younger daughters, one in her early teens, the other not quite. So he
was floored when his fellow employees and local businesses raised the money
to send them all to Disney World in Orlando this fall. “It was one of the
best times I ever had with my kids,” he said. “The weather was great and we
had a great time. There’s just not enough time and words in the world to
thank everybody for Disney World.”
Still, Criswell wanted to express his gratitude specifically to the
following: Joe’s Towing, Carl’s Truck & Trailer Repair, Leroy’s Hot Stuff,
George’s Gyros Spot, Hopkins Ace Hardware, Masterson Alliance Insurance,
Liberty Rec Baseball and Softball, the Fraternal Order of Police Westchester
Lodge No. 152, and Delta Theta Tau Sorority.
Criswell is now making his final preparations. “I’ve got some loose ends to
tie up,” he said. “I’m trying sell my home. I’ve already started packing up.
That’s the only thing that’s freaky, knowing I’m going to pass away and
figuring out what’s going to who. Then I’ll be moving in with my sister and
she’ll be my caretaker. We’ll get a private nurse when the time comes.”
“It’s a hell of a way to start the New Year,” Criswell said. “I do a lot of
sleeping.”